Tuesday, February 24, 2009 @ 8:40 AM
"Never make someone your pirority, when you are just their option."
Saturday, February 21, 2009 @ 9:39 AM
sigh.. i dont feel like mugging today. or in fact anymore.
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but i still have a paper on tues :(
Wednesday, February 18, 2009 @ 9:17 PM
i am so glad and happy!
i promise i will mug at 930pm. promise.
anyway, i needed to blog cos God is so so awesome and good!
i actually had every intention to go down paya lebar subway to study today. but not just to study, but also apply for a job there. ok. you know how much i love subway but i hate working in f&b line. However, times are hard and i need a holiday job BADLY. due to various reasons like building fund, totally broke, and debt clearing. so it made me desperate enough to even consider subway as an option. but i really HATE f&b. reluctant as i might me, anything to clear my building fund, i will do it. thats what i told God. i shouldnt be fussy when i choose to serve. servants have no rights to complain and i want to be a true servant of Christ.
so in the end, i didnt make it down cos i woke up late. instead, went to city hall starbucks to study with sis. while taking my short break in between studying, i kinda in my mind prayed. God, i really need a job next week. i need open doors for me. i've also been telling God i need financial breakthrough and all since last week morning prayer meeting.
my miracle came in the evening. was telling meizhen i am gg subway to work and all. then a msg came in, from my sister's ex workplace, terrapinn. i've worked there before too. this girl named claudia asked me to work part time for them as they need help for all the various events coming up. i was elated but not so as she asked me whether can i work tml and on fri. i am having exams till next tues. i told her abt the situation BUT later on she asked me whether can i work starting from wed (one day after my last paper). i was like.. OMG! SURE! hahahs. and guess what... they will need me all the way till about april! that means, my ENTIRE school holiday! oh yes! pay is not bad, $7 per hour. gg to start work at 10am that means, i am still able to go for morning PM. hahahs.
in addition to that, jackson later on texted me asking whether do i want to teach this P1 girl chinese tutition! yay! i am still waiting for his reply but i am hoping it is available! so it means extra income and i can still work even after school reopens.
:) :) my God is a provider!
Tuesday, February 17, 2009 @ 10:12 AM
after one day/night of thinking and decision making, i came to a conclusion. to just really move on. i am just letting go and letting G.
G reminded me of something,
he told me about abraham and his son issac, how when he obeyed the voice of God over his love for his son. thats is why God blesses him so so much.
he is willing to lay down the son whom he love so much on that altar.
this isnt something new to me.. but its yet another step of faith and challenge to just REALLY let go. not to even have a flicker of hope or expectancy. but let go. its not easy but i will try.
goodbye my friend. memory is where you will belong.
Monday, February 16, 2009 @ 10:20 PM
toshiba baby is finally back! oh yes! look at my beautiful "C"s and "X"s. hahahhas.
this is random. i am really excited over my lappie cos its been almost one week without it. thus the lack of being online (ok.. its not like i always go online) but my jewel is suffering.. poor girl...
anyway, theres so much i want to say and talk about that i dont even know where to begin. so i shall not start.. exams are on friday and next tuesday. please pray for me yeah!
i better stop before i type nonsense.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009 @ 3:58 PM
wow. i am really amazed at God's grace and power! i simply love the past few days to the max! since monday, my life has been utmost satisfying and fulfilling! indeed, this is the light at the end of the tunnel.
to recap, monday was really well spent from going to school then the gym, then to movies, then home for dinner. tuesday had lessons till 3pm, then headed home due to headache, dinner/supper at night with a few cgms.
today(wednesday), woke up late for pm! i thought i have to take the train down.. by God's grace, past records of any morning prayer meeting, i never once took the train down myself. its either free cab or nel's dad drove me down.. today, i thought that it would be my first.. BUT! mum woke up and said she is gg for morning prayer meeting (which she never once does!).. thus managed to reach by 7am.. she then later drove me down to toshiba service centre to repair the poor injured lappie. bad news upon reaching there. the keyboard is not covered under warranty as it is a spillage caused by me. the person asked, "is the keyboard spoilt due to spillage?" i knew that by me saying a "no" or "i dont know" will mean free servicing as it is covered under warranty.. with me saying a "yes its caused by me", i will have to watch my money fly away.. but i couldnt betray my integrity. i know many will simply say this small lie to get the free warranty.. but i know and i know, big lie or small lie, its still a lie in the eyes of God. thus, i decided to be truthful. many will call me stupid, dumb that i have to pay $70 for a new keyboard. but i really couldnt bring myself to lie. i was quite upset after that as it means my allowance for this week will disappear just like that but what to do.. i brought this upon myself. so i hit the gym again after that.. was still sighing to bernard.. "i paid $70 for integrity" hahahas. i also told God secretly in my heart, "God, i believe integrity will pay off with good rewards" so while on my way home, toshiba called me! i was like.. "wow..thats fast" then the person on the other line asked me about the spillage.. how did it happened and all.. and GUESS WHAT! he told me, "for the keyboard, i will claim it under warranty for you" i was like.. "ARE U SURE?" hahhas. hence, i dont have a pay a single cent for it! God is good! indeed, integrity pays off well!
Friday, February 06, 2009 @ 5:21 PM
i am really stretched in my capacity to love people
too many things has happened this week that i dont know where to start from.. but it is also one relaxing week..
yesterday night, the door of my room slammed shut on me and it was locked. well.. call me stupid, dumb, whatever, i left the master key INSIDE my room. yeah.. but i really thank God for daddy! he helped me opened the door somehow and i dont have to pay for the locksmith to come.
today morning, i realised my thumb drive went missing. you dont know how dependent i am on that small black thing. my reflection journal which i am suppose to hand up today at 5pm is inside.. you can feel how frantic i was in the morning.. woke nel up 2 times and i think he is gg to kill me for it.. sigh.. dont ask me how that thumb drive went missing.. cos i dont even remember it falling out of my bag.. i purposely tie a long lanyard to my small thumbdrive to prevent myself from losing it.. but i still did anyway.. and at the most crucial moment..
sigh.. i am depressed.. i feel like a job (the character in the bible)..
but like him... i believe God will restore all things which i lost.. not just the same.. but 30 fold, 60 fold and a 100 fold..
TO MR S.A TAN:
i just wanna let you know, i am not so easily defeated.. the girl you are fighting against is one ultra solid, strong girl.
